i've been gone for so long..

..and now i'm back! haven't been using this blog lately, so i've decided to give a little bit of an update. life has been quite adventurous in an odd monotonous way this semester so far. reality is finally starting to sink in. i'm slowly becoming more and more involved at my youth pastor's church and i'm so thankful for it. my spiritual walk has been floating around for quite a bit and i've become a little worrisome. doubts and questions have begun to arise that i had never really thought of before (i.e. why do i have faith in God? is this really my faith or have i been force fed these ideas for so long making me think that they're my own?). it has been a tough journey, but the more i keep meditating on these things the clearer His voice becomes. He is there and He sees me. wow..to know and understand that the Creator sees and hears every little thing i say and do is overwhelming. what a magnificent way of showing His love for us! though i still have those days when i doubt, mainly due to the circumstances that occur with daily life, He always finds away to make Himself visible. He lets me cry even when i look like a creep just laying on the floor of my room staring at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face. He probably chuckles a little bit by how silly i look, but He continues to love and He continues to cradle me. what a year..so many different experiences and so much growth. will be sure to write more when i have more time.

AGAPE.